written in the chalk of life

2010-11-29T01:26:00.001+08:00

Ive never felt so lonely before.

2010-08-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hi I really miss blogger.

www.yourpaperwords.blogspot.com

2010-05-24T22:19:00.001+08:00

Catch me around the corner @ http://thecauseofme.tumblr.com

:> Seeya there. Bai.

2010-05-19T18:36:00.001+08:00

Yes trust life.

So this is really the last post I shall have no regrets.

Goodbye find me if you can :)

But I'm sure you cant.

June holidays will rock my asshole.

Zai Jian.

2010-05-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

Cause you will never know how much this hurts me even if i act like everything is okay.
Cause I dont let you know.
Cause you are happy, I'm not.
Cause I'm in pain.
Cause I'm a burden.
Cause I'm a mistake.
Cause I keep getting in the way.
Cause she is always better. She will always be better. I cant compare.

I wish I can just dissappear from your life. But I find it hard to walk out.
Cause I will keep going back even if it hurts.

I'm sorry to be a burden I am very sorry.
I hate myself.

2010-05-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

Today, I quit blogging here.

Bye theyellowchalk and thanks for the memories.

2010-05-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

Even better if the stars are good tonight

2010-05-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

Im going to create a new space.

2010-05-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

IM BACK. YESTERDAY CAME HOME LATE TODAY CAME HOME LATE TMR MAYBE.
IM KINDA KILLING MYSELF RIGHT.

Oh and april has fucked off. Im glad! Welcome May please dont be a bitch thank you :)

OKAY I THINK I GO NOW. I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO SAY.

2010-04-27T23:57:00.004+08:00

I didn't think I will be this affected. Cause I got over it. That was the worst but this is the aftershock.
It triggers me but no it won't bring me down.

I won't care unless you care. I won't do anything unless you do something. I am not waiting, I am accepting.
Feeling like i'm not important isn't great. I know I am important to someone. It may not be you of course why must it be you?
We're nothing. Someone may be something to me.

Scary how time can change someone.
Where is all the happy laughter I once knew? You said this was better so show me better.
I should fuck off now.

Sorry to bother.
Have fun.

I am pissed. Am I an alternative? I am not a fool.
Too bad for me.

2010-04-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

Sup. Today I slept awhile in the afternoon after reaching home and woke up moody.
Why are you so freaking hot and cold. What the heck must I say. What the heck you want me to say? Stop messing with my head please.

I need to scold someone, i need to find keewee.

Stop making things so hard for us.
-

On a side note, today school's been happy. I am glad to reach home kinda early. Been long.
I have to rush out PI and not forgetting GP now.
Damnnnnnnn.

ps/ i am not really vulgar.

2010-04-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

"Be soft. Dont let the world mke you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

Sometimes we got to remind ourselves to stay positive.
Humanity is something I came to hate. How heartless can some people be. How fast can one's face change. How strong can I stand?

How much more can I face?

Still,
We should not hate. Everything has a reason.

-

Today stayed back 7 hours for PI. Cant believe our good tolerance level!!
Clap to us and Ms Lee for her delication.

I smiled on the way home cause I see light.

2010-04-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

Sup. This weekend's super hectic but i'm enjoying myself
lotz.

Yesterday played pool and ate w t. I really hate pool i played 5 rounds and lost 5. :( I will have a rematch and own youuuuu :(
Then went for CO and Guzheng concert w 1010 people and I think I went there just to see DIondra okay. Seeeeeeee! HEHE. Me and wanling were so stressed about being freaking late but ohwell we are nt hehehehehehhe. The concert was nice overall I didn't get caught for eating but I was guilty :/ just too hungry man. Time passed so quickly
before we knew it it's 10pm. Waited very longgggg sor the guzheng people and ate at marina square macdonald. We were afraid of missing the last train and our heels are fucking annoyingly pain so we ran barefooted for the train. I like it man though people think we're nuts. LOL.
I reached home at godly 1.30am cause the last bus was being a bitch. Slept like a pig.

Today is another excitig day. Woke up to think for GPP cause I felt guilty for not being able to go for the meeting. I hate pw it is a waste of braincells :( I wonder who invented it, what a troublemaker :/
Was feeling damn lazy and thinking of staying home but I have I knowwwww for the sake of euuuu. Okay so dragged my feet into the cab. Yeah I took cab again, feels like I'm paying for all the cab driver's salary somehow cause I practically cab everyday. What a stupid girl.
Was one of the earlier ones to reach they all so late. Ate ate ate I think I really are alot feeling fat now. Took pictures. I miss being in school w laopong somehow :(
talked and took pics and then left for home which is also kinda late. This shows how I haven't done a piece of work this weekend. I suck why am I in jc j don't think I suit the life here.

I wish dwi dark euuuuu all the best. Be safe okay though you always bully me but su is nice. :D seeya soon!!!!!

Alright here is my kinda longnupdate while I try to sleep well obviuosly I failed to sleep i am going to regret tomorrow. Life stinks.

2010-04-25T16:24:00.001+08:00

My dad is lame he sent me "best sore throat remedy" on hotmail.
Thanks dad. but the mail doesnt make a shit sense at all :O

Okay im bored. I have no ideas for GPP i feel like im letting my group down. Think you stupid small brain THINK!!!!!
I cant think.
This stinks :(

2010-04-22T21:34:00.001+08:00

My fingers cant feel a thing now cause I spent the last few hours playing guitar.
Just realised I forgot about maths test tmr, oh shit.

Today's a happy day, :)

2010-04-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today I feel full of shit in the morning. I hate this type of moodswings cause it makes me feel like sleepig forever which I can't cause my dad would be home. I shouldn't spoil his bday at all.
During chemistry tutorial I found out I can multitask well cause part of me is answering the questions while the other part is noisy. I hear alot of people speaking in the back of my head. I felt the room was noisy but it wasn't. Am I going crazy why do I keep hearing voices in my head telling me the stories of my life?
They could have won a noble prize in storytelling.

I cheered up during break time cause my classmates are so entertaining. Yeah they kinda make me forget everything in the moment and just laugh my heart out. I am lucky. :)

after school was nice w wanling and ginette just talking about life. I can say Ive seen alot heard alot and learnt alot. Throughout 17 years of my life, I've stood up strongly for what I think is right, protect people I love, hurting people, caring, crying heart out at night, lost someone dear, and tolerated. This is lfe? This is growing up. I like the talkkkkkk I wish we cab talk longer but wanling went to bizclub hahahahha.

Went for training in the end after whining half my life about it, didn't really regret cause it's so fast with circle line and floorball mates are nice and fun too. New coach is super encouraging I like. sometimes I feel that the world is lacking encouragement no? Maybe.

I have alot of thoughts today, but i'm determined to sleep a happy kid. Nobody can actually help in this cause it's me. I should quit being impatient w myself. I succeeded halfway when I stopped thinking of you for almost half the day.
I love myself more today.

Bye people. Stay strong, what's with all the giving up thing?
"we are still young right?" yeah.

My dad.

2010-04-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

In 1 and a half hours later will be my dad's old birthday! Though I cant really say he is mature at all. He is actually the most stubborn in the family.
Still, HAPPY BDAY LAOPEH. XOXO.
Me and my dad are both not really comfortable w being mushy w each other.
One time he sent me "good morning, i love you suhui!" when hes feeling lonely at work (he sent whole family LOL) and my hair completely stood frozen. Traumatised. I wish he dont do it ever again hahaha! But still love my dad, he cares but does not show.
And I think he sort of regretted being mushy cause me and bro laughed at him for the whole week.
Yeah my family is not really good w the mushy stuffs. cept my mom.
Explains alot of things actually. Haha.

Today I decided to write a diary. But i dont think i can keep it up.
I want to sell my diary when i die.
(im mad)

People around me loves me. I know that! I love them all tooo muackszxssz.
Weian is really bad comforter. He does not say the things to comfort people but actually says things to wake people up.
If he psychologist, i think the patient just jump down the building.
OKAY not that bad.

Maybe I should test ghey's skills.
HEHEHEHEHEHE. Its good to have friends on different profession.
Like I can ask ghey to comfort me.
Can ask Beh to help me take care of my pets.
Can ask lester to build aeroplane for me.
Can ask meixia to build ship for me.
Can ask Pau to count my money.

Life aint that baddddddd.

2010-04-18T21:57:00.003+08:00

I'm back from loitering around w my friends.
Throughout the day, I feel like my heart was not in me. I look at things around me but I am thinking about other things instead. Lol, wtf right I know. I should stop it cause I might piss people off. Don't be so weak la me please.
Anw, qianni is mad cause she wants everything she sees today and they're all fucking expensive. Why do people like to spend alot of money on one thing? I prefer spending alot on many things. Lol. Okay it's just me?

I have a sour stomach now literally sour tell me whats wrong w me please I mat be sad but I don't think I want to die.
Life is just sucky let's all face it.
Today life sucks. I can't even order a proper coffee. The Kbox we
wanted to go closed down. And idk. Spend money on useless things.
Welcome to the new chapter of my insensible life. Sure you will like it.

Tmr is school day. How will I cope I don't know.
Feel like spending time alone.

Please tell me to stop wasting my life away.

2010-04-18T10:32:00.002+08:00

All I need is a hug telling me everything will be fine. I hope it will.
Why is the world so complicated. Every step we take is like a mistake.

I need to drink I need to drink I need to drink.
I won't be alcoholic but just this time, I need to forget.

I will be happy again, trust me. I won't let everyone who cares down. He's just a person, passerby.

2010-04-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

I need to stop scaring myself at how easily i laugh now.
I must be mad,
super mad.

2010-04-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hi, dont worry. I am alive and kicking.
I just feel like kicking some ass but ohwell, my friends say im sadistic.

I can describe how I feel well. But I wont. Cause I think if I write a book now I will be rich.
Fml man, fml.
I guess it sucks to be me.

Surprisingly, I thought I couldnt do it. I am fine now. But I dont know how tomorrow will be. I must wait and see.
I found out I have alot of friends today. I love them. I miss them.
I wonder why you are so mean to me, and you are so kind to me, why dont it go the way i wanted. Why must life be so ironical. I want you to care but you dont. I want you to not care and you always cared. I am illtreating you. Must treat you better.

My life is currently full of shit. But I will fix it.
Give me time and a bottle of wine.
I may have to drink every other day. But fuck it i dont care.

I am fine, really. I'll be me in no time.
I wont take back these words I swear. No matter how helpless I feel, I wont take it back.
I fucking wont.

And thank you. Its partially my fault. We were happy.
I think I still love you but, i know we can cope w this.
No one can actually stop this from happening.

I am not depressed.
Am so not am so not am so not.

I need to treat myself better.
Yes.

2010-04-17T18:58:00.001+08:00

I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad.
The dreams in which im dying are the best i ever had.
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take.
When people run in circles its a very very, mad world.

-

Im single. _l_

2010-04-16T14:50:00.001+08:00

I'm nothing.

2010-04-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

It hurts to miss you but not see you.
You promised. Where did all that go?

2010-04-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

I need somebody to tell me what to do now.
What?

2010-04-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hello, i just had a good 3 hours of sleep and nice dinner.
I did not go for training today, felt like i was gna collaspe cause I sleep when im standing aft mdm tan's class. Its hardcore torture. Haha.

Cheerleading practices these few days are nice but tiring. And fking scary. How can I stand on one foot you tell meeeee. I wil so die. Sorry for vulgarities today :( shit happens when im scared hahaha.

So I have not done any work its super not productive day.
I should at least try to write a few lines, huh.

Sure, bye. :)

So whats your reason now?
Maybe i should just be stronger and go with it.
Cause ultimately, i dont think i deserve any of this.
Show me you care? Till then, face my empty heart.

2010-04-10T12:48:00.002+08:00

What the hell. Seriously, these people are makimg me hate school even though I actually enjoy it.
I don't think they even care about how we feel. Fine say what you want, you have the authority anyway.

I'm so moodless because of it, I still have to go k later. Wth sia.

I never had a problem with teachers anywhere so is it me
or them. I wonder.
-

nvm I shall not spoil my own and your mood people. Napfa was alright throughout cept for some parts. i fucking swear I never cheat, maybe I just look like a cheater whatever. :( pisseddddd.
I'm gonna meet sg later so I shall to chill yeah. saving my Saturday.

No wonder he hates this place.

Rawr I need to vent, anyone? :(

Fucked up ttm.

2010-04-09T23:03:00.004+08:00

Sup. School's been fun busy and scary. I'm getting split personalities bcause of the diff treatments.
Boo's at the hospital and 1010 is about to be happyyy then. Nightmare *thnder roar*. Mdm Tan w her black face and nice lit quotes that makes us feel so super overly suppressed. I swear. I've never met someone like her.
Its the first time I got scolded for greeting a teacher.
Her famous quotes:
"I dont think its right for you to greet me if you dont know my name. It makes no sense."
"FOR THE LOVE OF GOD..."
"Oh so time stood still in the library and you were late?"
"dont pretend to focus, FOCUS"
"Im impressed, there are 3 passes"

and many more epic ones,
who knows i might get sued for this.
Im practicing gp here ok.

We had two lessons w her.
And we had two test.

It is indeed a nice experience. I prefer it short.

Oh the other hand. Shopping isnt nice today I not enough money.
-

Bye. tmr 5 item. just for 5 item go school. why god.

2010-04-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

OMG THIS IS SO COOL I WISH I CAN PLAY IT BUT CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME PLEASE. :(

Is today considered a good day? Yessss. I had fun today.

Though boo's not here to discriminate me, another gp teacher came and omg she freaking scary and kinda rude LOL. Okay humans are never satisfied. Cant all teachers be nice?!
So today was a random day at school. We were talking about how 1010 people all suay kias. Meixuan and Likeng and samuel and angelina sprained their legs. I almost sprained mine ytd! Niceeee spraining syndrome. Melissa poured orea on me. :( Okay la not poureddd. But we all suay. super suay.
This is the 2nd time i kena oreo. (looks at ghey) Omg oreo hates me.

I think nothing much leh cept we went cwp w samuel and peiling walkwalk then went home. Siannnn siannn siannnn I need to do maths uh :/
Tmr no training hohohohoho

2010-04-06T20:18:00.003+08:00

Sup guys, a little ranting bfore I start work!

Today susu went to school a happy kid. She reached early! Applause.
But she went home a sad kid cause she still had to go for cwo. Wth!?
I swear I tapped that stupid card on that stupid machine. But I was recommended by my very nice ct to go for cwo.
F!!! Come early for what! Wth! Knnbs! (diondrahahahahah)
She dont accept my parent letter then she accept people one somemore.
Bestbestbest, nothing much I can say. I'm her worst enemy in class I think.
Whatthecrapppppp. I feel crappy.

I may just whack her when shes leaving hehheh. Ok. I not ahlian.

Ok so tmr cwo again, I think the dm might get tired of me soon. Like oh this girl again she must have been crap. Or maybe her teacher might have been crap. Both crap.
:(

So today I have only econs to do yay! But still need to finish tutorial 2 this sucks theres so many questions. Quote from fb group "dear math, I dont want to solve your problems. I have my own to solve." Damn nice.

For pe we ran full 24km but the sun was freaking hot like burning us. Run until feel like killing myself. It took alot of energy and we still have a whole day till 5pm with only 30min break. The whole day.
I wonder how we survived. I was thinking of rolling down the lt to commit suicide. Ha-ha. I think after reading that book ive become sadistic and kinda evil (?) Not.

Wanling ps me to go pack balloon. (hahahahaha jk).
Angelina say I am flowery crab (i dont know what it means shes mad!!!!!)
Diondra damn vulgar tsk. (o.o)
Likeng v kidd.

There my not so new friends now. :)
All bad

Tmr maybe theres floorball and maybe i will be tired as hell and maybe i wont touch a single work.
So i should do some now. Bye babies.

Have a good day. And take care neigh i read about your rashes all over. Hehe! Recover for k !!

:) I feel polite today.

2010-04-05T19:25:00.002+08:00

You said if I explained you would understand. What a damn lie.
My explanations turned into excuses.

Yeah you are always right may the people of earth bow to you. Wdv.

2010-04-04T00:21:00.001+08:00

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away

-

Ohman seriously, fuck PI.
I'm very moody now.

2010-04-02T17:47:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD I AM A MAC CAFE NOW I AM STUDYING IM A GOOD KID :D

I HATE TED.

AHBEH IS IN MALAYSIA I HOPE HE WONT COME BACK HAHAHA KIDDING.

I WANNA GO QIANNI HOUSE PLAY SIMS.

I WONDER IF THERE IS STILL CLASS OUTING TODAY :(

SIAN I SHOULD NOT BE LAZY AND START REPLYING MESSAGES I WONDER WHY I AM LAZY.

2010-03-31T20:05:00.002+08:00

Sup guys. I have no idea why im blogging at this time cause tomorrow is like dooms day. Chem and physics. What the freak I really catch none of their damn balls. Sighhhh.

So I borrowed this book in the library, it was awesome. It sort of motivated me to write a diary but looking at how lazy i am...forget it. Maybe i should have a private blog to blog about more sensitive stuff. Okay I have no time, I think i should spend it on chem instead. This sucks.
I wonder why some people are so hardworking, maybe they just do not want to let themselves down. I should do the same. But I really dont care at all. (sian) Maybe this road is not really for me, okay I shall try.
Ask goodfriend his choice.

People should be mugging their ass off now while im wasting time. I think im bad at investments cause I always invest my time on stupid things. I havent replied a couple of messages cause my fingers are on this keyboard, I wonder if people will be mad.

I really hate thursdays now cause of the boo. When I see her I feel a tinge of fear and guilt, like someone is surpressing me. If i am a theif she suits the role of a cop best. I will lose my mind at this rate. Why god why.
I must be damn early tomorrow maybe take the 6am train. Siao gin na.

Dear classmates, I think I have not shown my really true self cause I may be a little vulgar but I restrict myself most of the time, cause people might think im bad. But I am not bad, I am just vulgar (sometimes). Okay maybe I scolded once or twice. I wonder if anyone in 1010 is vulgar too (looks at diondra). I feel weird when i accidentally scolded vulgarity cause I think no one does it, or maybe their true colours have not been shown yet. I hope they are more vulgar hahahaha! Omg I am not serious. I will be gentle and refined. :)

I love 1010 alot, im glad im in this class. I hope July comes fast then it will end my misery (lollll).

So thats all I hope chemistry disappears frm the earth and the government bans physics.

2010-03-29T19:38:00.002+08:00

It sounds kinda awesome for a duet.

Sup. I'm blogging now cause something struck me hard today.

My mom was trying to fit the batteries in the remote and was having a little difficuly. I helped her and jokingly said shes just turning old.

Well. She said "Your dad and I are already halfway through our lifes"

It struck me. I've only noticed how time flies for me, not them. I dont want to see a day they must rely on support to stand and walk. A day their hands shiver just holding spoons. I dont want them to leave me.

I'd never really learnt to cherish them. I'd never really think of a day they would leave me forever. Well thats life.

I realised how selfish i was, always complaining about them, I should had known its good for me.

Now all I can do is to make sure I am there for them when they need me. When their hands are as thin as paper cause I love them.

What the freak

2010-03-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

Hey yo. I shall update abit while waiting for qiannj to finish her piano lesson so we can go meet the rest @causeway. :)

Today is not a very good day, kinda pissed actually. I went for the second CWO this week, why can't I be early what the hell :( It doesn't feel good to be the only one cleaning the lounge and still have someone nagging you beside your ears omg it feels like crap actually. but luckily it wasn't that long hehe. It's not that I hate going for the cwo you know it's just her way of speaking very tskkkkkkk. Yesterday she tsk me cause I wanted to ask her question. Her attitude best la.
I think my temper is better already hehe.

I have alot of test next week this sucks. And Saturday's floorball match is compulsory for all. Crapppp I can only go studygroup
at 6. How I study for test siol. (okay not like study group very effective HAHA)

And i don't like sarcastic people seriously :( lol. They too owning. You won't know how to reply them at all.

I'm like typing crap already and qianni is still not readyyyyyy wahpiangz.

I hope tmr will be a better day and I will be damn early I swear.

Bye.

2010-03-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

Supz me is back again. I kinda like today cause its slackkkk. Just that I got CWO (something like detention) again, and I miss ghey cause shes always w me during detentions in Anderson :( Hahaha.

And I completed my MRP yesterday, which is full of crap. I didnt even really read the news, I just type like shit words. Ohman. Luckily boo said she will return those that are not up to standard. Heehee. And she's very scary today, she hates late comers and when she is showing the class the list I was practically freaking out. Okay Im not the worsttttttt. :/ But I heard CWO need wash toilet, f! I hope boo helps me. :S

Anw, i will talk about floorball camp briefly, day 1 was tiring like hell, maybe cause we're not used to it and had to do PT for the first time. IT WAS HELL. I feel like killing myself, but still ran for the sake of running. Then talk cock w floorball members, ate play, train, etc. Day two began damn early at 6plus. Immediately aft waking up, we ran 3rounds around the tracks. Ohmyg!!!! (I was thinking whatthehell i will freaking die). But I still ran :O Im good kid. Had court drills etc. I LIKE THE GAME TWOBYTWO DAMN NICE. But yeah, even the games we play are torturous (like catching and mrt) omg. I am so freaking fit now. Slept for awhile onlyyyy and kena woke up at 2.30am! FOR RUN LOL. WE LOVE RUNNING. Then went back to sleep and back to running at 7? HAHA.

Still, I had funnnn esp during night walk. Heeheeeeee I dont think we can blog bout something. And we bonded like nicely :D Thats all! Tiring but fun! Slept 17hours aft that HAHA.

OMG I JUST RECEIVED MY ITOUCH FROM THE DELIVERY MAN.

BYE.

Replay

2010-03-21T17:43:00.001+08:00

Hi im back from floorball camp.

Overall, I must say although it was ultraaaaaaaaaa tiring (super ultra) but we still bonded and had lots of fun. :D

And now im back and now I have to complete all the homework. :( Update next timeeeee. BYE.

King of this pity party

2010-03-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

Hey sup this is the last say i'll be blogging for this holiday i think, cause there's camp tomorrow and I havent got any work done at all. So, weekend's for homework and Laopong (L). I want to stay at home somebody please change the lock of my door ):

I havent even pack for camp. Greatttt ):

Okay enough of sad faces. Yesterday was really nice singing w class girls! :) And I like that place alot cause there's lots of english and korean songs, (cause i dont really listen to chinese songs HAHA). Oh and me and Wanling were bloody late D: Thank god the rest had good patience HAHAHA. I left early to meet my mother at Marina Bay, then dad brought us to sit Flyer. Not very exciting cause all I see is construction works, LOL! But took lots of pics and lazy to upload :/
Dad brought me to belated bday dinner, chilly crabbbbb! Heheheee.
And brother is like super rich, he promise to by itouch for me cause he owes me bday present omg, i promise not to steal his stuff ever again HEHE.

I miss all my friends I want to play sabotuerrrrr. Its very addictive. All not free today ): Hahaa.
Neigh came yesterday and we got fat again. And againnnnn. We cant control ourselves everytime ):

Oh I miss ted, he should be done working right nao! Spam his phoneeeeeeeee! Ciaos.

SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE MY TAGBOARD ALIVE D:

2010-03-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

Oh I think they're awesome.

I cant wait for tmr! I think it's gonna be hell fun yeah? ;D

and yeah, I finally added finishing touches to my blogskin. I think this skin is better. Haha, and I'm really itching for some sabotuerrrrr pleaseeee I hope study group come and play again. Okay study group and play shouldnt be in the same sentence eh :/

Ciaos! :)

Cigarettes.

2010-03-13T18:12:00.002+08:00

From tumblr, i think this is nice, incase you didnt see.

Growing up:

Lollipops turn into cigarettes.

The innocent ones turn into sluts.

Homework goes into the bin.

Detention becomes suspension.

Juice becomes vodka.

Bikes become cars.

Kisses turn into sex.

Remember when getting high was swinging on the playground?

When protection meant wearing a helmet?

When the worst thing you could get …from boys were cooties??

Dads shoulders where the highest place on earth and mom was your hero?

Your worst enemies where your siblings.

Race issues were about who ran the fastest.

War was only a game.

And the only drug was cough medicine.

When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.

The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees,

and good byes only meant till tomorrow?

.. oh man And we couldn’t wait to grow up.

Fate is an elegant cold hearted whore.

2010-03-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

I really like this song.

But my guitar skills sucks.

2010-03-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

Helloooo, i dont know what to update cause I've updated in tumblr.

WHICH ONE SHOULD I USE I DONT KNOWWWWWW.

Just a short update,
Past few days had been awesome.
Birthday had been awesome.
Life's awesome somehow.
My class is awesome,
sailing is aweome.

Life's good.

Go to tumblr :)
And I may change skinnn cause I realise I rarely update w this skin HAHA.

2010-03-01T19:44:00.002+08:00

"I remember when you came with me that night.
You said forever that you will never let me go.
Here I am again with nothing left inside.
I dont wanna but I gotta let you go."

I like this song.

So, I've been up and down the whole day I dont know why.
I hate sorrys. Its just there cause bad things happened, its just there as a word.
Theres no meaning at all.

I lost goal of my life like suddenly.
Lost interest, nothing happened yet I just lostinterest, wtheck.
Its only the 17th year.

Your messages got me thinking, worrying. I wonder if its just a prank.
But again, if I trusted him, why would I be thinking so much, as if it might happen. I hope youre joking cause I think I trust you more.
"Sorry".

Yesterday was drama-filled. Fuck it hope it wont happen again.
Bye.

2010-02-28T22:13:00.003+08:00

Reasons why people dont love much is cause in the end, its those who love that got their hearts broken.

Would you rather be the one breaking hearts, or the one whose heart breaks?

Save us?

Fiery tongue

2010-02-28T22:10:00.001+08:00

Check this out.

Where were you all along.

2010-02-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

Sup man. Today I have a major headache.
Its one of the most tiring days of the week. Had lessons all the way to 3 then had pe.
Only two half hour breaks which is mad rush cause we have to chiong food. Lol.

And I kinda like my class now we are so bonded yeah.
Samuel and Prithika are like damn funny and entertaining (reminds me of annoying orange and apple) HAHAHAHAHAA.
I like.

School's been tiring and fun. And Im pretty much enjoying myself and I do homework now. Cause everyone's doing them (except Diondra) HAHAHAHAHA JUST JOKING. She veh funny hehehehe.

Oh Mrs Boo showed us her true colours today. She is the xiao li chang dao type man seriously. And her face can change very quickly wthhhh! I dont really like :S
Kinda weird. And she taught us how to buy shoes (super troublesome). Got one hundred steps man.
I finally saw chubby in school today heeheeeeeee!!!

AND I HATE TOUCH RUGBY NOT FUN AT ALL ); I want to play frisbeeeeeeee.

Hai. Byeeee! Me and Wanling signed up for sailing w/o knowing we have to pay 35bucks for it LOL. Okayyyy we too rash.

Ciaoss! (I got homework to do AGAIN)

2010-02-24T22:09:00.001+08:00

I realise I havent do phy.
Mad rush now. Sian.

Where'd you go?

Forever is not enough.

2010-02-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

Sup im back. These few days I get overly excited for no reasons. I dont knowwwww why!
I must have been acting like a retard for others. LOL sorry ): Im not usually like this (i think).

Like during Pe ytd, I was kinda high. Kept running around and screaming when frisbee looks like its gna hit my face (but i got phobia what). Okay I am retarded ):
I hope my classmates dont think im retarded HAHAHAHAAAAA.

I talk kinda loud in public places also recently, cause I GET OVERLY EXCITED FOR NO REASONS. Tell me why liddat. I was usually calm and composed (hehe).

I am going to dye back my hair cause I think I look like ahlian which I am not, and people are telling me its very obvious so I am like I dont know. I just gna dye back.
I must be guai. I must be more girl. I dont think I can be more girl. ):

There, this is my reflection on myself for education purposes..? For lucy boo.
She told us about her blog and stuff for an hour. Awesome.

I dont really see anyone in school! I dont see chubby, dont see qianni, dont see steph.
I only kept seeing bocheng (LOL he not as shy as before HAHA) and sarah and izyan.
The school isnt that bigggg :/

Should I change back to the old blogskin? This one very hard to read right.

BYE.

2010-02-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

Backstabbing bitch.
Sorry. I wont listen to your craps about you and yourself anymore cause I found out whatever you said.
Im glad I dont even have to see you.

Yeah what a friend.

Well, this type of guy loves me more than you do as a fucking friend.

We are the world.

2010-02-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

Hi. My life is a life of a nerd now.
Study, go home, search for notes, search for research, printprintprint, do homework, k.o on bed.
And it repeats everyday.
I only have time to type short entry on blog. And update some sentences on twitter.
Deadddd facebook.
Damn!

Ohkay. I should like go now I havent started on gp. See, you get what I mean right. Wthhhh! ):
Btw I spend free time reading newspaper.

You dont know me anymore!
Im a nerd.

2010-02-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

Sup. Today is the worst day in NY.
Most probably because of chem practicallllll. RAWR HATE IT WHY MUST LIE THIS ): So its all our efforts on sunday wasted. But Ridzuan said at least we played arcade so we did not waste it, LOL. Okayyyyy :(
And we couldnt solve the damn answers this sucks :(

Ended very late today and ate with neighsss. Came home feeling super dead.
I listened to Single by New kids on the block and felt very sad for no reasons. Maybe im just sad.

Monday's blue.

I'm glad my class is kinda bonded. Yay.

Today im a sad and bored kid.

Ciaos.

NO SIDETRACKKK!

2010-02-21T19:31:00.002+08:00

Sup. I realise after changing to this blogskin I seldom update. Hahahah seems like no link but there's link okay. Somehowwww.

So school's been nice and fun but even more busy. The homeworks are already piling like mad and tutorials just starteddddd only. I cant imagine life in J2 man. There's even chem proj that must be done by Monday. :(

Speaking of Chem Proj, our group C10-3 met up in woodlands to complete it today. It was damn fun, we were kinda comfortable with each other, luckily. Hehhh. And we completed it, feeling so accomplishedddd :D Went to the arcade and played aft completing the proj. Heheeeee i like.

Part of 6End had steamboat on friday and it was great too! Add alot! And our steamboat got the chaodah smell :S So many people in AJ mannn so nice there. Hahaha. Wanted to catch a movie initially but did not cause very late and so we went to la kopi. In mac. LOL.
6End still like the best eh :/

Okayyyy. I need to do homework. I really hate the econs teacher. He keep bombing us homework like paper is free and time is abundant. CB!!!

): Byebye!

2010-02-10T19:29:00.004+08:00

Fire upon your wicked tongue
Somewhere far I'll like to run
I'll take the blame for your headache

Now who shall care about my heartache?

Got a fever and very hot. Cant be stopped.

2010-02-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

Sup. I'm at the worst of health these two days.
Ran a fever ytd and it hit 39.2degress omgggg I thought my head was gonna explode man. Today I coughed like nobody's business. Ohmannn I havent even made friends with my new classmates yet, when they see me coughing liek some old woman they confirm run far away. This stinks!!! ):

Hahaha. So life's been good. Except for health. Still got my good friends with me and Ted. He cooked noodles for me again (but...erhem). You think I sick cannot taste isittttt D: Hahahaha. Not bad la k. Better than last time. :)

Went for dinner w Neighbro and his bro just now. Helped him tear plastic. Its a fucking tough job you know LOL and his new mattress are so high. We were saying ahbeh cfm knock his head on the wood if he sits on it. :/ Hahaha. Speaking of Ahbeh, his flying tonight to Japan. What a nice life for the polykia!!! And he screwed his timing. The plane should fly at 11.20 he told me its 9.20. I rushed to sms him for nothing.

Ciaos!

NYJC!

2010-01-31T15:59:00.002+08:00

Hello humans I'm backkk!

Last two days were NYJC Orientation and its funnn! :D First day was okay our OG felt a little low but we still had fun playing like hell and my OG is Conner4! Andersonians all split up huh! ): LOL. Had subject talks and I chose my subs! (anyhow). Played games like double whacko and some different stations game. We learnt mass dance too and our school mass dance looks like clubbing dance HAHAHA.

Oh and NYJ is a kpop school. You hear kpop everyday hehehehe its cool me like it and all the OGLs will know how to dance to all kpop music. Naizeeeee.

Second day, we got burnt in Sentosa! It was fucking fun i like playing on the sand. Me and Qianni's group (Junkers4) kept having competition together and qianni poured water on me okay!! ): but i squeezed her water bomb hehehehe. And my OG is higher and more funnnn whoohooo. NP guy William is sad guy cause he kept getting saboed. Okay anderson one also. :S
We got a unique hokkien cheer Qianni says her OG felt we were kinda vulgar HHAHAH. My OG is sick we went like "we are gonna squeeze your balls" rofllll.
Okay went home with red face and today its black. Niceeee la.

Yeah I like school now looking forward to more orientation dayyyssss. The seniors were right when they say NYJ is a fun school but we have to study ourselves ): Hoho.

Okay thats my short update I rotted at home ytd. Too tired.

Monday is 21st month :D and we are learning traditional dance plus mass dance for dicso night :O The school is so danceyyyyy

Im glad I can see Chubby around school too hehehhe :D

2010-01-27T09:50:00.001+08:00

NYJ.

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL BITCHES, HELP ME. SAVE MY ASS ):

Stay close.

2010-01-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

A picture for you.

I'm back again :) Today is kinda boring cause everyone is busy and such and im rotting at home. Tmr will be better!

Anw, I just went out w Laopong just now wheeeee. She is very fickle minded she drives me crazy cause she doesnt know whether to buy the shoe or not but its okay I'm laopong and I survived LOL. Walked back to school to collect eagles I have munny now dont play play.

Drank BBtea near voiddeck like how we used to, kinda miss school life a lil. But the way things are now, I think I rather not go to school and suffer huh. We talked about years ago when all of us were magically happy and innocent. We used to hang out alot together it used to be a large group and so on. Guess we cant blame anyone for anything.

Ohyeah, we remembered stupid things that happened during lower sec days. Foolish kids we were, looking back. J8, NP NEOPRINTS. LOL. Memories huh.

Went home aft that I'm not feeling well today. Nose is bad, its spoilt. Mentally tired just thinking of new environment on Thursday. Not prepared at all.

I miss SG quite alot. Maybe first day of school a celebration dinner? Celebration is just a nicer way to put it :/ LOL.

There's alot on my mind lately. I should write a diary (so old school)

I need a new me.

Truth.

2010-01-25T22:19:00.002+08:00

Sup Im back!

Its been a total chaos lately in terms of everything. Yeah everything, I dont think you understand what Im saying hahaha.
I've been going out like no tmr and staying at chalets/whatever and it was tiring but time passes by like aeroplanes in the sky (makes no sense wdv!). Ohyeah Neigh taught me a new word its WDV. I like it neigh! High five. :D

I'm broke too but I've been collecting money from my mother LOL seriously its collecting. Not stealing :/ School is starting again in a few more days wtf I hate school esp new schools but I'll survive I guess. Only two years nia just be a fucking lonerrrrrrrr, wont die.
I want a new fresh clean environment too. Shiok. No troubles.

My heart is very fickle these few days. I like you, I dont like you. I hate you, I love you. Everyone should just avoid me, I think I'm mad. Im hungry, I'm full. Happy, sad. Life's a rollercoaster ride. And I dare say it sucks.

I realised I love my family hell lots. But sometimes, I dont know what I'm saying to just hurt them. But I still love them hell lots. I love my friends lots too. Some.

Good news. Straw had her bath! Whoohoooo ever since two long stinky years (but i dont think she stinks i love her smell) HEHEHE. I know everyone is glad they dont have to smell straw's stink combo when they come over. Fuck you all!!! Sorry I dont mean it. ):

I went to chubby's church and it was cool like a concert. But the woman (i dunno who she is) freaked me out like whatttttt. She is mad :/
Chubby is my zxk and she is cute. (random)

Okay thats my life.

Everybodeh please. No more bombing on my wall. Its destroyed. Find another battlefield thanks thanks ilu. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay stop ):
Why people will see each other bu shuang for no reasons, got prob isitttttttt. Humans all got prob.

Whyyyy you wanna piaaaaa isit. (lol @ kiv)

2/2 chalet was cool btw. We laid in the middle of the road LOL to see stars and they're nice and peaceful. Me like. Chiu is my good friend. Kun and bao are my goodfriend. LOL I sound mad?
I climbed a fence for the first time there too. Heeheeeeeheeeee.
I like laying down in the middle of nowhere :S

I hope the seaside by my house will really convert to a beach (someone told me that). I will go there everyday man , just to hear the waves sing.

OKAY BYE IM MAD.

Freshly Dressed.

2010-01-16T16:15:00.001+08:00

Hi there. I finally changed to a new blogskin and i like it alot :)

I hope everyone likes and btw, I'm not going for smoking but the picture is kinda cool uh. No I wont smoke, relax.

Neeway, People are here @ Neigh's house and its the usual few.
So I shall go now. Bye.

(you are the problem in the first place stop acting like the whole world is against you pfft. And fine you are a jack ass)

2010-01-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

HERRO. I ROVE SUHUI SHE IS THE BEST OWNERRRRRR.

I STEEL HATE KEEWEE THE BYTCH.

Chionggggg ahhhh.

2010-01-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hi today is kinda a good day.

Started off with open houses @ngeeann poly and singapore poly.
I really like the vet course at ngeeann eh. and theres nothing much.
The demostration of how to revive an unconcious patient is epic ttm. Btw, the fake person look damn scary to me. Eh. Idk.
And we got turned off by a bimbo. (-.-)
Singapore poly was much more high but there's like no where to go explore.
The CCAs were wow thoughhhh. Scubaaaaaa!

Chionged Bugis street today but it was a failllll. Only bought a pair of shorts.
Tskkkkk, so many human heads in there, no oxygen at all and cant see the stuff in the shop.
Not happy. Pau got a stupid elmo tee and kept irritating us with it LOL. Theres alot of people wearing the "emo" shirt.
Pau said that its almost the same as him except they lack an "L"
Comeon we survived his ultimate lameness for the day. Give us an awesome clap.

Took photos but not alot. Its been long since we took pics.
And we ate Sakae. I am so fucking broke now ): New year no need wear new clothes already.
Kivbro had to leave earlier and we continue stuffing ourselves with food, all of us almost couldnt stand in the end. Cool i like food.
Walked around bugis junction and we took neoprints HAHA. Its been damn lonnnngggg neoprints is like a primary school stuff. AND OUR NEOS ARE LIKE. IDK. kinda retarded HAHA.

Went home and we took dumb pics on the mrt.
I like today alot.
:)

Oh and I saw BB. BUT SHE DIDNT SEE ME. TSK.

-
On a lower note, results are coming out o monday. How do you feel?
I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL. IM LIKE FEELING-LESS. Maybe im used to shits HAHA.

I wonder how I will react if I really got some shit ass noob results. So to play safe, please refrain talking to laobu. I dont want to rawr.
Maybe I will run straight home aft collecting it yeahhhhhhh, nice idea.

Can I stay home and sleep and not go collect insteadddd ? :S

I'm putting everything every memory of sec school behind and move forward, hope I have a nice road ahead huh.

Sigh whatever it is, goodluck everyone. No tensionz.

2010-01-08T13:45:00.002+08:00

no motivation to blog.

work is just draining me out.

and lastly, results on monday. No mood for it.

if youre not here for good intentions please fuck off thanks.

Maybe I should private to some nicer pals.

Ciaos.

It didnt mean a thing.

2010-01-02T15:00:00.002+08:00

Hello, my first day of the year is filled with different feelings.

First I feel fucking tired cause I slept at 5 the previous day cause my bro friends are screaming like raving rabbits ): And when Qianni and Hangwei called I have no idea whatI'm talking.
Then its filled with boredom when waited for something to do (wii) after preparing for the bbq.
Then its filled with excitement as we rock on guitar hero and play like some siao people.
I was sad when I kept losing at mahjong and lost money and happy when kivbro earned back some for me hehehehehhe love you bro LOL.
And felt desperate when I found out how much we did not pepare for the bbq. No wire stuff no scissors no water. But we solved it. Relieved. Oh and it rained before that. It's not a really good day for bbq eh.
Cooked awesome food hohoho and talked alot of crap I love these people heheheh :D They always make me feel vellivelli happy.
They left @ around 12? And I packed and went home w ted.
Felt lost even when youre there.

I wondered how much i meant to you.
Nothing I guess?

But I didnt want to spoil the first day of 2010. So I watched happy shows online and try to think about happy things. Didnt really help.

I hope today will be better.

Life ahead.

2009-12-31T10:43:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow friends (kiv and chubby wth haha), today is the last day of 2009.
Yeah what a year huh.

For me, this year is not exactly as bad as last year (family drama wtf), but I saw through alot of people this year.

You think you changed for the better, I hope so. Glad this year is coming to an end huh. I hope you know nobody's perfect, and you cant expect everyone to think like you do, cause this is life. Glad to have known you, I dont regret the good times we had, and the bad times we went through.

You were there for me whenever I needed you. I hope we get into the same school but you are too smart for me :S Although we have little time for each other, I will always lend you a listening ear okay? See you soon and take care and last long. You have no idea how much I cherish you as a friend though I dont really show it sometimes. Thanks alot <3

A group of friends together sure makes it merrier. We studied our life away together (and played our hearts out now). We dont really do quarrels caused we know each other so well. But recently, some small stuffs happened and I hope everyone just forgive and forget, dont waste our friendship for such things okay? And I love you guys I mean it. We would still hang out together for the next year and I'm sure of it. Doing crazy stuff only seem fun w you guys around. (: Btw, we should all go for cooking lesson.

Hi you claimed I'm demoted but I'm not, respect your elder. HAHA kidding. You made me smile alot this year (and all the past year). Stay happy and treat your pet with proper care and concern. I'm sure we will hang out together sometimes and I still think your future is very bright (of course with me as your zx).

And you are the weird friend I have with lots of character. You like to do crazy stuff and sometimes we go hoohaa over some things and people get irritated of us. But yeah, we had a great time didnt we? Hope you are taking care of yourself well enough and play hard, but work harder! :) xoxo.

Dont let bad things make you fall, let them make you stronger. You appear strong but deep in, you know you're not. Glad to have you as a friend these years and I know this year had been hard. Forgive and forget, and move on happily :) you are talented btw , haha.

Lastly, you suck. Tired when I call you and fell alseep always, but you know, its okay. I forgive you. Please be a good boy this year thank you and bring me more cards. Hope it will be good for us next year, like this year. <3

This year, I made new friends, I lost some. Some remained, some changed. But I dont do regrets.

To all my friends or whatever even if you dont treat me like one, let this year end happily and let go of your heavy heart. Scream 2010 with the happiest heart ever, and the year would eventually be great.

To my family, if I let you down this year I'm sorry. Thanks for understanding that I'm going through my rebellious age this year and I will slow down once I get older maybe a year or two? Two. You know I love you all though I'm a very bad girl. And brother, you should know you were worse. LOL. Thanks for my awesome pocket money I will earn money to feed all of you when I grow up. Thank you love you.

2207, forever in my heart. 4408, kept in my memories. & 6 Endurance, never be replaced.

Okay done with my speech. I'm not really good with speeches.

-

My new year resolutions:

Please let me grow taller.
I need more money to support myself (a job in the zooooooo?)
I want a guinea pig.
Grow old but dont look old please.
Be a better person. How, I dont know.
Buy Taeyang's album.
Pass all my exams, kinda impossible but I will still try.
Put my head first then my heart (learnt the hard way)

Thats all, its pretty simple. I just want to rock 2010.

So thats it. Hope everyone enjoys their countdown party and <3 each other.
Life aint easy but we have to make the best out of it yeah.

XOXO. SUSU. I will be back next year. HAHA.

2009-12-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

I know shit happens. But. Why does shit always happen to me.
I think I made you think the wrong way again I'm sorry. Maybe its how I talk.
Like a guy.

I think I should be more girl. (but i hate it). I am not really sensitive eh :S

So, today's work is the most tiring one out of all the days. Maybe its just the monday blues acting up. I kept counting the time to get off work I know I'm a bad employee, no wonder you people dont want to employ me. Nice choice, good job.
I need the ladder to get stocks while people just tiptoe & again, good choice sluts for not hiring me again cause I took the longest time ever to get down the ladder. (its scary)

Neeway, Kivbro is back and he sent us an sms! He bought stuffs for us wheeeeee. Now I can finally go down for supper (sin). I walked a dog yesterday. My cous brought it to my house, I was too excited I dont mind picking up its poo downstairs. And wiping its pee. Guess I'm just a poo person who likes cleaning up after animals and not humans. And cats are fucking scary I swear one cat looks like a tiger when it saw the dog. I prayed for our safety.

I can get off work soon yesyesyes! Maybe meeting teng or something. I want to go home and sleep too and play guitar and slack and eat. All except working.

Byebye, oh and Alvin and the Chipmunnks anyone? ;D

(I really think I'm talking to only Kiven and I HAHAHAH whatever!)

Merry belated Christmas!

2009-12-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

Sup. This christmas had been a nice one, maybe one of the best.
Cous's wedding during christmas day was kinda nice, what a nice date to begin with haha. And the bride is fucking pretty. The food is godlike me like.

I realised my family's made up of jokers. Our table is the noisiest there (all my cous+my father) and i think some people were annoyed HAHAA. We played indian poker in the wedding cooolll uh.

Okay lots of pictures but next time? I dont feel like uploading them i know im a lazy asssssssssss.

I love my family. Bunch of clowns.

So today. Kinda boring, had family over for stuff ans now alone at home again (argh).
I want kivbro back!

I havent been seeing alot of people sorry. Once im off work i guess :S Oh and I ponned clint's dinner party :S

Haiyo. I dont know.

BYE, xoxo.

Blue Eyes.

2009-12-23T20:16:00.000+08:00

Come, sorrow is so peculiar
It comes in a day, then it'll never leave you
You take a pill, wonder if it will fix you
They wonder why sorrow has never left you
I'm talkin' bout blue eyes, blue eyes
What's the matter, matter
Blue eyes, blue eyes
What's the matter matter
so blind, so blind
What's the matter, matter
Blue eyes, blue eyes
What's the matter with you?

-

Waiting for something.
Out of guilt, or for nothing at all.

I just need to unwind,

2009-12-23T13:21:00.003+08:00

Sup, 3rd day of work here. I only blog when im @ work huh.

The workers just finished their break so im allowed some free time, yayyyyyyy. Today is a good day prolly because i had more sleep andddd ntuc is giving out free towels = workers queue-ing there and i can slack more. :)

I always have stomacheache during their break idk why. Virussssssss.

Ytd Ghey asked me abt work. Told her im facing eclispe everyday HAHAHA. JUST A JOKE. NO TENSION.

GTG PACK AGAIN FUCK. BYE

-

Oh I just finished packing alot of sandwiches. I'm so tired ):
But I can go home anytime soon yesyesyesyes fucking happy whoooo!!!!!!!!!

Alot of people going out today but I'm not. Sad la. Siansiansian.
And Kivbro should be at hongkong now. How nice I wish I was thereeeee. Well, grass is always greener on the other side I guess. Take care Neighhhh!

Me Ahbeh Qianni and _? are going swimming on Saturday, DAMNNNN I CANT WAIT TO BE IN THE WATER LA. I LOVE WATER.
I would want to learn diving, if I have the money. HAHA.

and my guitar skills is progressing slowly. At least I can change chords faster now :S Okay maybe not. I think my guitar sounds weird, not nice! ):
My guitar hero not bad though LOL.

I MISS MY FRIENDS.

Stoners' club.

2009-12-22T10:42:00.003+08:00

Sup. I'm helping out @ my mom's place now and its seriously a place for stoners.
Everyone feels emotionless, and I have nothing to do now. Argh.

Neeways, I just found out that I was cheated. I thought I would only be helping out for a week but no, Its 2weeks. OMG I CANT STAY HERE MAN I WILL SERIOUSLY ROT LIKE FUCK.

SOMEBODY HIRE ME AND RESCUE ME THANKS.

I miss slacking @ home and having friends over to play and cook. I havent seen alot of people for a long time huh.

Ohyeah, enjoy your tangyuans everyone, I just made alot yesterday and I dont really like the handmade tangyuans. I like ntuc one. Fast and easy and peanut. HAHA.
Eh I think I'm going out of my mind here.

All I do is what nobrainers can do leh. Stock tidbits. Pack food. Stone.
I dont even get to sell them out I'm the backscene worker!!!!! ):
For some reason I prefer working with people than things. Cause I like talking...?
(Now I'm like using my break to talk to myself. Wonderful la)

Anw, anyone read my blog anymore? LOL. CAUSE I TALKING TO MYSELF MOST OF THE TIME RIGHT YOU SLUTS.

OKAY.
I FORGOT TO ADD THAT ABOUT 100INDIANS WALKS INTO MY STALL EVERYDAY. WOW.

WHO TURNED OFF THE LIGHTS. BYE.

-
EDIT.

I FEEL SAD WHEN I SEE AN INDIAN WITH AN EMPTY WALLET. IDK WHY.

Stuck inside forever

2009-12-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

I made Ahbeh pissed with me,
I have swollen eyes,
I have no talent in music,
I'm going to work with my mom tmr zzz,
I am weak,
I did not swim,
I ate only one meal today.

Life sucks right?

(byebye)

2009-12-20T11:01:00.000+08:00

Hi blog. I dont feel okay.

Almost better.

2009-12-19T12:02:00.002+08:00

Hey sup Im back aft a long break.

This holiday has been busy and boring throughout, and I dont even know how to express it in proper english lol. So most of my closer friends would have knew how zoo was eh. Great, I should really go forward and work with animals and I hope I can haha. And trust me, zookeepers arent that friendly (esp one), and they have very bad tempers. Eh, I dont like. I swept lots of poo and Kangaroos have the best poo ever. Smell-free. Godlike to me. Saw Weians a couple of times, he works at night safari, I want to work there next yearrrrrrr, hoho. But he emoboy.

And yes, I havent got a job, again, I think the reason is me being short. I'm going to hunt a job soon i hope, ahbeh needs one too (i think he needs one more urgently) andddddddd i just need to earn back the money i spent so i would not feel so damn guilty :S

I dont seem like I have much friends this holiday cause I kept myself at home when most people have a job. And the bitch is always at his cous house so I kept seeing Hangwei and Qianni alot. And maybe Pau too. Cooking was fun with them and Pau is a great mopper. We should always invite him to mop the floor here. HAHA. And sentosaaaa was kinda funnn but it kept raining !!! Cheebai the weather. Seawater taste like crap btw.

Guitar must be the toughest shit on earth, argh. Maybe its just me, talentless. I'm going to find a kind soul to help me with it I hopeeee.
Days are flying pass like jetplanes, soon its the day we all know if our efforts really paid off, but I still cant decide on my own future. Well, future is mine and I guess I'm the only one who could help me with it.

Oh this holiday I thought alot. Its useless trying to tell people whats right or wrong cause its their choice however they want their life to be. Telling them the way, to me, is not helping shit. And opinions that hurt are not meant to be discussed in public, if you really care. If not, why the opinions then? Just keep it to yourself and myob. Its not directed at anyone actually. Its just a human thing eh. I guess everyone follows their heart and the results aint always a good thing.

My heart isnt feeling good for the past few weeks, i dont know why. Many people changed and I did too. Why dont we learn how to accept instead of grudging. I wonder how youre going to cope in the real world next time, kill everyone? Maybe keeping to myself is the best thing to do. My temper is also flaring this holiday. I grow irritated at the slightest thing possible, and it sucks. Replies are late cause I was controlling myself, or its short and everyone thinks I'm irritated. But well, I am. I prefer people talking nicely. Well. Thats life.

There's also a couple of 6End gathering and its always filled with laughter. Pool is the common outing theme but yeah I suck at it alot. Went steamboating with them a couple of days back and its nice but hotttttttttt like mad. Loss our appetite because of the heat (-.-) and the tissue cost 50cents i think. No spoons provided. It sucks.

We have very little time for each other now, my thoughts kept straying. Faith is fading and time kept passing. I wonder if. And all the ifs in the world.
I wish I could read a human mind.

Yeah thats my holiday, and now I can say that I really miss school days.
Well, it takes time to get used to the new life. Just wait and it will be, almost better.

Btw, sorry for the lack of pictures. No mood, I want my band to be here now.

2009-12-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

I feel fucking depressed.

& zoo was great. Some other time maybe.

Why cant they fucking listen!!!!!!! CCB

2009-12-02T17:51:00.003+08:00

Sigh, I dont know anymore.
I always thought I knew.

-

Hi people im back to rotting. No one can play games with me! Kibum in cous house D: Beh's in malaysia. Qianni's noob graphic card!!!
):
I hate you all people.

Byebye. Im going to find me Jack Sparrow. Fuck off Elizabeth Swan hes not yours.

):

Tired of waiting

2009-11-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

I love Pirates of the Caribbean.
Jack Sparrow new (L).

Am I getting too unloyal? No ):

New Moon no more tmr this sucks this sucks big big big time!!!! Wo de Jacob!! ):
Ohkay, round two of rotting completed. Tmr no more rotting I will continue on Wednesday.

Ciaos babeh.
I like to be a loner nao.
You just piss the shit out of me! Fuck you!

Older

2009-11-29T22:11:00.003+08:00

I took a deep breath, pulled up my pants.
I held my weapon tightly in my hands.
Taking a careful step, I move closer to my enemy.

And I killed the first roach in my life.

I've grown old and fearless. (exp that I screamed a lil)

2009-11-29T18:18:00.003+08:00

Hi im back in singapore.

Well, the trip was good with lots of shopping and spending money i love that shit. Lots of good food too i think i gained 264747kg shit. Anw, Im still glad to be back in singapore for the clean air here!!!! I think I almost suffocated there alot of times when the huge buses came smoking up my nostrils. Andddd Im sure i will get knock down by a car someday if I continue crossing those crazy kl roads. I love the traffic light, period.

I bought stuffs for people please love me and want me back HAHA i feel so not in touch with the world now. Dont know what to do now... want to work man. Shall be hunting for jobs this week and then off to work @ the zoo whoohoo! Cant wait.

Why does everyone seems so emo to me when I came back and smsed them? Or is it that I forgot how to communicate with young people while im out with old people the past few days arghhhh. Please all put smiley faces in your sms cause to me, no smileys=no happy. I dont know why too.

I want to go back to 6end chalet its fun. We had an awesome time rocking in our tiny world and doing shit stuff everyone there was cool uh i think we didnt change much! And one thing : Our BBQ was godlike okay! Had gazillion food ready for us to gorge it down and we did. And we played pool like 16years old teens LOL i suck, i think im the lousiest, sigh. Arcade was cool too had daytona race, and we occupied like 8 seats hehehee. Did not sleep much im so sorry kivbro for squeezing you and making you sleep like a log LOL D:

Daniel was there with his gangsta hat, Issac and Zhenyu with their awesome nice to play Iphone, Lester with his stupid jokes, Study group with our hoodies LOL, Huisze with bright smile, Mandy and Meixia with their vegetarian food, Pau with his holy christ, Zichao with his never laugh at all, Keith with his composed nature, and riverside people helping to eat the potatos. HAHA. Hope I did not miss anyone out.
And not forgetting our godlike bbq chicken eating style that scared the hell out of kids :D

Now to KL. Its okay I spent most of my time shopping and eating. But I arrived there with cough and flu, which is most likely due to the BBQ food D:
So drank medicine for all the days there aw. But shopping was indeed fruitful whoohoo!!! I slept with pigret and talked to my handphone there, and was lonely like hell but I had my parents and my aunt and uncle. They're great with looking for food.
Times square was cool with rollercoasters but im such a loser who dont dare to play alone LOL. I want to go sunway lagoon with friends i like it its better than genting!!!

Now im back with nothing to do. Sigh. Wo de peng you zai na li!!!!

):

Nice life.

2009-11-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

Hello. These few days, I'm like a walking zombie.
Too many events, too little sleep, too many things to do, too little time.
Tonned over @ many chalets and there's still more to come. Though I'm excited, I have no more energy left man. I need to sleep pretty badly.

Laopong stayed over for yesterday again, and this time she did not sleeptalk but whacked me in her sleep thank you laopong you the best :( So I had bad sleep and I'm out again today to buy stuffs. And the fucking shit is that I forgot to bring my house key, I cant go home to do what I need to do. That means no more sleep again today and fuck, tmr there's chalet and we'll be tonning tell me how to survive. After chalet will be KL zzz kill me now.

Aside from that, I finally bought a new phone BUT I CANT CHARGE IT CAUSE IM NOT AT HOME = I CANT EXPLORE/USE IT CHEEBYE LA.

ME THE BEST.

I think I have to wait for my mom to reach home @ around midnight. Then pack bag for tmr and KL trip and transfer stuff to my phone. No need to sleep.

BYE. Sometimes I really hate myself for being so retarded. !@$@#%^$#^. No comments.

2009-11-15T16:15:00.004+08:00

I love Taeyang's Wedding Dress mad. WHOOHOOO.
Hes performing today I cant freaking wait! ^^

Aside from that, I finally woke up after my deep sleep. Did not sleep the entire day yesterday at Davis' Chalet man, too many people, too many noise ahaha.
I cant even hear my whiteboard collasping which should be loud just now wow the power of tiredness.
And now I have nothing to do cause Rose inspection, Mousehunt inspection.

Oh basically what I did yesterday was:
Listen to Weian talk alot alot, LOL. Listen to Adrian disturbing everyone! (-.-). Listen to dave singing. Trying to wake Eddie. Played Arcade. Watch them disturb jiahua sleep fucking funny. Smelled Sheesha nice candy smell. Disturb Davis' sister. Got disturb by davis damn bad ttm laopong whats with your bf la!!!! Played cheat and lost. Watch Weian drink alot LOL. Watch Randy trying to puke.

Okay thats all but it was kinda fun. Except that I feel damn dead now.
I wonder how those people who still have work survive hahahahahahah.

Byebye.
I cannot kp people cannot cannot.

Body down down down

2009-11-10T21:38:00.002+08:00

Since rose is under server inspection (which took like freaking few hours already D:) I will update s lil.

Hi my life is slowly getting brighter as the days get nearer to the 13th. Did you notice its Friday the 13th when we end our paper? Shit maybe its bad luck we might get run down just after we complete the paper. I said might happen. To you heheh.

Okay so one thing, I dont fit in the chinese community. Why cant I just do chinese paper normally T^T I hope I can pass please I want to rid chinese off my lifeeeee. No need to talk chinese read chinese write chinese liao lor thats good la hor.
Hehehe. And I hope study group can make it out on friday I need like new toys! Playtime babies!

No doubt, I kinda miss school a little. Sitting in class isnt such a bad thing after all. Its better than camping infront of a computer turning into a comp geek right. Everyone's hunting for jobs now...Mom is forcing me to work bloody hell!!! ): I wonder if anyone will hire me (look at my height and voice seriously...) Fuck!

I cant wait to go to the zoo, KL, and class chalet.

God bless me have good health to conquer my parties with utmost energy thankyou loveya~

:D People who end tmr: keep your mouth shut!!!!! ):

Just joking why tension sialz. Heh heh.

Oh and I want to camp at East coast hehehehehehehehe interested?

Bye. (I just got turned off buy some shit show on tv)

Ora Yeah.

2009-11-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

Hi my dear friends I hope you missed me.

I had a burning head for days and it healed yesterday. But it turned into a fucking headache, prolly cause I was using this shit electronics device and well, chalet.
I have a headache now too, but technology is indeed taking over my life.

Good news is that, chalet has been finalised and many people can make it so yeah I hope its worth the fucking headache. I hope theres alot of bacon there too ^^v
Another good news is that O's are so ending whooohoooo can you feel it? Can you see the freedom and pleasure right infront of you? Yeahhhhhh!
I like Bigbang new song, OraYeah. (okay random)

I downloaded a new game why the hell. I am not going to screw humangeog :( Hai bad self control.

I actually CAN wait for prom man. I still need to buy a thousand more stuff like shit I am slowpoke. This sucks and I dont feel well to attend it maybe I should drop. Mom would kill me.
I think Stomp is scary. Is Singapore turning into a policestate? Sounds familiar huh, lol.

What phone should I get hmmmmm. Trouble right. My phone now aint bad okay I saw paul twohill using my phone heheheh its the trend nao wtf!

Okay I have a boring life and I am a boring kid i have nothing else to say. I think I lost my ability to speak. And type properly.
I must get rid of chinese in my life. GBM.

Bye, seeya aft the torture.

I forgot to add: Why the hell am I allergic to Strepsils? Is there anyone allergic to strepsils wtf! I am a retard!

Bbye! Hate you all!!! ):

2009-11-04T19:51:00.001+08:00

Billie Jean is not my lover.

Hi theres only one reason why Im here.
I screwed today up like some fuckhead!!!

Fuck my fever la fuck everyone hahahhaha!
Hope you all fail.

I was just joking btw. No tension siol.

You and me hardcore.

2009-10-23T20:12:00.003+08:00

a) I studied quite alot today, am a happy kid.
b) Ohmy I totally ditched Physics. How now rowcow?
c) My mom's tongue never stops. Trust me on this one.
d) I dont really know what working extra extra hard means. Die.
c) Wai my favourite designer out!!! (I did not watch tv I did not did not did so shit)
f) I just realised I typed "c" instead of "e". English going fail liao lor.
g) Let me say uh oh~~ I want Taeyang album faster.
h) ANTM is pure bitchiness. Nice huh.
i) My brain is kinda dead now after studying. Hope I can remember everything. *prays*
j) I miss study group. Qianni always nvr reply my messages. Tsk!!
k) My mom just scolded me cause I asked her for a new hamster. Sigh.
l) O's 3. 3.3.3.3.3.3.3.3.3.3.3.2?
m) I think I got depression leh.
n) This post is pretty pointless huh. Still to keep myself in th computer world.
0) Comp please dont dieeee. Phone died, MP3 died, wallet almost dead. T^T

Thats all lalala.
I need to chill!

2009-10-21T13:38:00.002+08:00

I just need a getaway.

Why am I not feeling well at this ungodly time!

Well, shit happens.

Back to ordinary muggings.

2009-10-20T16:31:00.004+08:00

Waves of time seems to wash away the scenes of our crime.

Clouds of time seems to rain on innocence left behind.

It never goes away.

Why did I just do. I just downloaded Rose wtf!

See, why did anyone leave me at home alone. I end up doing stupid things.

Hope I will manage to keep away from it until end of O's. Bless me!

Anyway, I realised that arranging for marriage dinner is trouble, causes quarrel.

I heard many people quarelling over the number of tables all those stuff. -.-

And now my aunts are also troubled over my cousins wedding plan. Bad this is bad.

My wedding just have open buffet at the zoo. LOL, no troubles. Hehehe.

Hmm, I studied human geog today, left abit.

I hope I can finish I very scared for history right now so that is up next.

I want to go play i want go beach i want go orchard i want to chalet i want try woking i want new phone i want new mp3 i need own money

Eh, this update does not make any sense right. I should end here.

(i dont care you know? *ignoresrolleyeskivenbitchcombobitchslap*)

You need a chill pill, L.

Dictatorship.

2009-10-18T14:14:00.002+08:00

Hi I'm back. Today I feel screwed, I think I have a very short temper D:
I almost killed my tutor again just now. Hai.

Anywayyy, I feel like blogging massive stuff after O's. Maybe about my friends and stuff heehee.
Be good to me aaahhh later I write crap about everyone. Lol. :O

It's just a few more days to O's, I really dont know how prepared I really am man. I feel prepared sometimes and not sometimes, I just worried about history and geog. Ffffff humanities Idk how to memorise :/

Oh and I will be going down to collect prom dress later (hopefully the measurements are right), and I have lesser time to study! Shit lah! I think I will start reading now.
Fyi, I have been reading the same page of Facist Japan and I still catch no balls okay, I'm a loser! :(

I'm starting to catch Taeyang's song. Hehe. Yesterday study group made a joke out of it.
Taeyang is so supporting singlish (where u at?!) and maybe other songs are like "what talking you?!" hehee, me like lah k.

Oh and we are planning on 6End chalet, but its too confusing plus we have tight schedule huh. I got zoo, and job...hai. Out of school =/= rest.
And is there 2/2 chalet...? :O

Just to tell, my last hamster died. :(
I have no more living things with me when everyone's out, lonely.
Should I buy a new one? hehehe. Maybe I name it Taeyang. LOL.

Okay so bye. Back to Japan.
Fantasticfantasitcfantasticfantastic, elasticelasticelasticelastic. (-_-) screw kiven hahaha.

And I wanna see you break it down, like me

2009-10-17T23:17:00.012+08:00

I finally have the mood for massive pictures upload.
Get ready for my awesome faces and my friends' too.
Please dont die reading this. :O

@Chubby's house!

Miko the bad dog!

Stole my place and gave innocent eyes. o_o

Smiley (??)

Chubby and me!!

Nut and me hehee.
-

@Breeks with Ted!

His is much nicer than mine huh.

I love the icecreammm :D
-

@Eunike's party!

On the way there :)

Cool deva specs hehehe.

Our toilet moment.

With Chubby and smiley again, :O

Ted!

Laopongggg!

Laopong and laopong-stealer!

Nut and chubby~

Me, nut and a monster behind -__-

Tengtengtengteng the end of party!
-

Random menu that made me LOL.

Strawbeary and kiwi dating? How come I didnt know, bad bears! o_o

@Saving the world with Neighbro.

I think we wont get a job from kiddy palace ever again for screwing up their stuff D:

In the end, we bought Beara for Hangwei :)

(He must be suffering now, I pity the bear)
-

@Beh's birthday!

we did a mini celebration!

In the midst of studying...

Beara bullying pigret )):
-

@Some random shit.

Oh, done my me and laopong~

I think we wont get into trouble anymore cause we're out of school.

hehehe.

No dustbins aroundddd okay.

@Last day in Anderson
4 years went past just like that. Not prepared to leave yet.

Sprained leg for a nice memory~ :O

Chubby!

Me and Daphne!

Tell the truth o.o

Yeah, we have alot of toilet moments, HAHA.

Laopong!

See, my english sure get A1 LOL.

Helpful, but the old lady doesnt seem appreciative at all.

(-.-)

@Ordinary Muggings

Herro. I'm tiger!

I spammed suger, its bitter like some shitz.

Whateverrr hehehe

@Saving the world with Hangwei

and @Qianni's bday celebration.

Looks nice for a vege.

Her birthday pizza!

We're good cooks huh, hehe! :D

Best dish ever, hungry ):

Her fav prawns with salad!

My loves! :D

Everyone in study group is officially 16, yay.

Okay I'm tired.

Is this considered a massive photo post?

I wonder how some people manage to upload 100 photos at once, I will fucking die!

HAHA okay update some other time bye.
Ringggdingdong, stupid neigh.

2009-10-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

For all nosy people: " I hope you know that we know that you dont knw what we know so stop pretending like you know even though you dont cause everytime you pretend to know what you know even if you dont know what you know, youre just lessening the value of knowing. And if you keep lessening the knowing pretty soon we're not gonna have no one know it and if we have no one know it how are we suppose to know when no means no?"

HAHA. funny shit:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CbFr_fUdRLI

Where you at~

2009-10-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHH. I like this dance more than the song. :/
But taeyang ftw!!!
I cant really catch the tune though.

Ohwell, a few more days, to the end of O's HAHAHAHAHAAAA. COMEON BABY SOON ITS PARTY TIME, LETS GO PARTTIEEEE.

I think I'm mad.

Today was .
fullstop.

Bye cya. Bless me.

Watch them step over you,

2009-10-11T20:31:00.003+08:00

I'm boredddd today!
Everyone's busy I'm so sad. Why am I not busy today ):

Woke up for tuition as usual. Kinda unproductive.
Then went to eat at some nature place with my mom and bro's gf. Had nice food I'm happy!
Walked around in the damn hot sun, almost melted. They have nice bananas there.

Went pop to restock my stationaries for the major exam. Then went home alone.
Made new furniture for my hamster but I dont think it likes it.
Ate alone.
Determined to do work.
Slept awhile instead, screw myself big time.

Cooked alone, again.

Chem mock tmr, scared huh. I hope I can pass, and mok wont say goodluck to me.

Now, I should study alone.

Stupid loner, me.

Haru, haru.

2009-10-10T19:13:00.003+08:00

My phone officially died. Nice one.
Luckily Kiv has a spare phone for me and can read my memory card. Yeah!

I want to upload graduation pics but I'm @ Kiven house alot.

Okay so we are out of Anderson!! But I cant say I'm really happy and all, although I wanted to be out so badly last time haha. Suddenly a loss in sense of directions from the teachers, guess I'm still a kid who needs guidance! :O

I love my school friends love teachers love sitting down during flagraising (lol?) I really think sitting down during flag raising is the best thing that ever happened, someone who has shit in the morning like me.
Although there are ups and downs here, we get to know everyone's true colours and adapt to it no? I learnt that differences can be resolved and everyone can be harmonious.

I think I changed from a kpkia in lowersec to a mush quieter person now huh. Cause I feel that only necessary comments should be made at the right time.

I also miss dancing alot, it reduces stress so maybe I will continue dancing after O's.

I know respect.

I learnt people care even if you think they dont.

I learnt I actually have nice classmates. (cause in the beginning of this class I felt like...you know)

Okay. It was a good journey.

Now, we fight the Cambridge.

Take me back to the start

2009-10-07T21:42:00.004+08:00

This is cute, haha!

Hi I'm back. Yesterday's study plan was fufilled and I studied way more than I wanted to (yay). But today...uhm ultimate fail.

Should I attend school tomorrow? Sigh.

Just watched finish alot of dance videos I miss dancing, helps to relieve stress yknow.

Cant wait for this torture to be over. Again I cant help thinking what would happen next, after all those stuff we know, after prom. New life? :/

I dont like making friends uh. (lol) Me is introvert.

What will happen to everyone?? you?

Somehow I want to stay like this forever haha, in a familiar environment.

So...sorry Kamal again, I was peer pressurized!

Why do I feel so sour in my tummy can someone tell me? I swear I didnt drink green tea. Dont tell me I have depression LOL. Ohwait. I did drink green tea. Shit I should avoid it from now onwards, it makes you feel sad.

I am becoming paranoid. I need a break!

I want a dog I need a companion.

I'm still waiting to go to the zoo yay.

Ohyeah, today while I was waiting for breakfast an old woman suddenly came and touched my face. I was stunned for a long time, she is mad.

Yesterday Laopong's late b/c of me. Sorry man, good practice singing though. And chan is annoying.

Feel siansiansiansian. Why dont you make me happy? lol.

I cant remember anything that happened. I'm on screensaver mode these days. I need to get myself together.

Okay this post is getting weird bye!

Still wondering whether to go to school. Hmm.

No worries.

2009-10-05T19:35:00.003+08:00

I hate this I hate this I hate this to the core,

see I shook off this feeling a long time ago and it came back again.

I'm sorry I'm a very selfish person. Only one choice, only 1.

I cant tolerate these things.

I feel like darkblue.

Back to physics. I hate this!!!!
Right now,
I need a person whose name start w L and ends with G.
Get who? Tmr I will be seeing her :)
I need another group of people who are random and lame. Long time before seeing them again.
I need ghey to make me feel like a ghey.

Argh. Why like that?
Still hating this.

Hush lil baby dont you cry.

2009-10-02T22:31:00.003+08:00

Just came back from causeway point with my dear bro neighbour.
I feel lighter and happier, guess all I needed was a company but I have this weird ego shit that I dont really like looking for company and wait for them to look for me instead.
Guess I go by the nature. Lol.

We were on our mission. And half of it succeed but you know.. we are two planner-failures so... yeah.
I can't wait to light up the lanterns tomorrow and burn the building down baby!!!
Wait, why am I anticipating lantern festival like a kid? :/ Maybe I just need some fun after monotonous school work+studying these few days. Can I take a break no?

Oh I'm glad I did not go to you when I'm down just now, time to be independent without anyone supporting me. I can do this shit.

So, pictures tmr, bye!

Hope everyone will enjoy burning their house down and howling at the full moon tmr. Ciaosz.

Slow down?

2009-10-02T14:22:00.010+08:00

I've placed this song several times in my posts. I dont know why i like listening to it when I dont feel good. Yeah.

Maybe its because of O's. I feel stressed, I dont feel like myself.
And when I needed support, I dont know who to turn to. Not even you.
I dont know why I'm feeling like this, I hope it will fucking stop.
Sometimes I just need to pour out everything in me, but its seems not even the closest to me have the time to entertain me, or maybe its just not the right person im looking for.
The right person always seem to turn away.
I know I can always turn to you. But its not right, you shouldnt be the one I look for only when I'm beaten.

You gave the best of you to them, me?
I wonder if I can keep hanging on like this, sometimes I might just blow up.

-

Oh a happier note, Sunday's our beloved Beh's birthday, and tmr is lantern festival.
Happy to celebrate with loves.

Fuck it, I need a private journal.
I guess nobody in the world understands me, nobody.
My heart is dying.

2009-10-01T20:26:00.001+08:00

A good heart is better than all the heads in the world.
-

I like.

2009-09-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

I'd put up some musiccccc to make this space alive (or to irritate you) cause I wont be updating as much. Hmm, but I dont know what music to put so anything k? hehe.

Theres a screaming baby downstairs/somewhere. I swear her screams are killing my ears. Comeon mom cant you stuff a bun in the mouth?
Okay kidding, but really, I think sometimes I'm not that good with kids.
Kids are bad, they are evil. Esp these young generations, have you seen them screaming at their parents? I tell you, theyre no joke man. Ohkay, sorry I hate naughty kids!!!
(cause last time some drew on my bedroom wall) Damn these fellows. :(

Come to think of it, I hope i dont kill some young primary school kids when I'm bringing them around the zoo. Unless they really piss me off, I might throw them in the tigers' cage.
Nvm, Jerrica will take control (^^)

I cant wait to go to the zoo to help yeah!
My mother have this illogical violent objection about me going.
"Later they bite you" , "The food got alot of disease"....
Comeon, you dont see zoo keepers killed by animals in singapore zoological gardens right?!
(exp that guy who went in on his own). And They dont die from food "infection?"
I dont care Im going!!!

Ohyeah, study group says my ambitions are all weird stuff like...
Police, Vet or Zoo keeper.
All low valued. But girls dont have to support the family. Thats the good thing huh.

Well thats all.
Bit of SS just slip out of my mind. Shit!!

Of all the things...

2009-09-26T13:43:00.004+08:00

Since I'm waiting for study group, I might as well update.

This are the photos for Eunike's bday party! Some are still in my phone but, lazyyy.

Grand table

Devarajjj.

Ghey's sexyback. HAHA

Gheys forever!

O_O HAHA.

Yay thats all. I realised I actually took lil pictures uh, heh.

Yesterday, alot of stupid things happened to me and ted.

First he suddenly ran off throwing his bag on the floor, it stunned me. Cause he forgot his shoebag, everyone starred at me cause I was shocked too haha.

Then Hazel and Sean tricked me that Chip want to see me. Fuck!! I was actually thinking why I'm such a suay kia but turns out that im not!!!

After our movie, me and ted were eating at the foodcourt..Ted saw a black thing on the table infront of us. Then he walked there without telling me anything, made me stunned again. (I thought he forgot shoebag again). Turns out the black thing is his keychain or something that we bought together! Why is it on the next table...hmm? DAMN LUCKY.

Afterthat I went to Chubby house. On the way, I saw a huge dog on the loose. So I chose to take another route. Then I went lost! And walked a round back to the mrt and start the journey again. Nice.

Before that i saw a woman in the mrt with her comb still stuck on her head. I tried to control my laughter but I think people heard me giggling with the anonymous beside me, (that person told me not to tell the lady how evil...but i didnt tell).

Lady in cwp said me boobs small. Haha, maybe she said Im skinny. But I think otherwise, but who cares bout boobies. LOL.

Okay and Phobia is not scary at all man. But it was abit gross. Haha I love the last story fucking funny! "Ren xia ren, xia si ren" (Means human scare human, human will die) Direct translation, pardon my language.

I'VE FINISHED UPDATING WHERE THE HELL IS STUDY GROUP.

Here we are,

2009-09-25T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'm back to this space.

-I hate my L1R5 hate my laziness hate my attitude. Hate myself.
-Here we are so what you gonna do?
-Hazel and Sean successfully made my morning a panicky one, damn you all la.
-I actually slacked today, bad.
-Gonna read up on SS later, got test again.
-Youre my heartheartheartheartheartbreaker, stuck in my peabrain.
-I know how to dance it too, lol.
-Carried stone and walked alot with Nut and the laopong today.
-Went to Chubby house just to send her to the mrt, got lost on the way there. PEABRAIN.
-Dont know what to buy for prom, i know its not the time to think about that...
-Why are you so stubborn?
-All I need is faith, in myself.
-Yesterday I stoned whole day cause Nut is not in class and I was left alone, sad.
-Nut can sabo me even if shes not anywhere near me. Cursed!
-Sorry Kamal. Just...liddat lah.
-Damn you Sean and Nut again!!! I will have my revenge.
-Ate cupnoodles for dinner, what life?
-Want to watch FO. No, cannot.
-My brother? Where?

Bye, my life is full of shit!

Why school no night study also. Need it. Scared.